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Riped

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Broken in the fabric, not unfixable but worth lamenting, now everyone needs to know, just like the worst breaks…. everyone finds out, and reacts….all reactions hit home and the soul is bombarded with the ram and held in place with the vice… it is never ending…

i feel unnerved..

sumthing is up the top place lose yourself feel it again , touch the void, be the moment.

just be in the yes no over theree yaping like a goo yuou become go ing ing ing hideing hideing killing killing hilling hilling joking i relally am i swear it

i need this ou it needs out we needout my mind and its parts are sick of the in timewe want more of the out moments more of the understanding moments more of the freedom moments, head dowm you knwo what is needed this is the fastest there is not another existance in my mind this thought is alone being along…..

along is alone, we are all alone in our heads at the speed i am at right now… my veins pulse the people, want out also the system wants out!

Let the system out

The rulers awake…. close your eyes

shhhhhh pretend!

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Written by Dave

February 29, 2008 at 4:13 AM

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Broken in the fabric, not unfixable but worth lamenting, now everyone needs to know, just like the worst breaks…. everyone finds out, and reacts….all reactions hit home and the soul is bombarded with the ram and held in place with the vice… it is never ending…

i feel unnerved..

sumthing is up the top place lose yourself feel it again , touch the void, be the moment.

just be in the yes no over theree yaping like a goo yuou become go ing ing ing hideing hideing killing killing hilling hilling joking i relally am i swear it

i need this ou it needs out we needout my mind and its parts are sick of the in timewe want more of the out moments more of the understanding moments more of the freedom moments, head dowm you knwo what is needed this is the fastest there is not another existance in my mind this thought is alone being along…..

along is alone, we are all alone in our heads at the speed i am at right now… my veins pulse the people, want out also the system wants out!

Let the system out

The rulers awake…. close your eyes

shhhhhh pretend!

Written by Dave

February 29, 2008 at 3:13 AM

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Go With IT

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Dont find me there, dont light that, dont open ours it wont be ready when you do i know mine wont, dont leave that to the side, dont expect that to be finished, dont expect anything at all, just be in there, get your head in there, i will fly on that, i will leave on that penny, i will.

light up light up light down that road, see it? on the corner? four bricks up beside the forgotten posters, the spent money, buy your shit, eat your shit, shit your shit, they wont shit for you i bet you should pay someone with your blood money, go on shit your shit, you payed enough of it with their money to let it go to waste.

This is dry honey, this is sweet honey, this is the honey to hold me down, and give me energy, wrapped in honey, honey for the masses honey to keep you rooted, honey in the hair, honey on the comb.

Why should we waste it on boxes? why waste it at all? Why even have it? Like before the clocks kept the time ticking over, the money wasnt keeping the world as one. the clocks are unique… the money is not.

Money is not now

its what might be and what was…. i know have IT because of money. Do you want IT? I need IT!? Dont we allllll NEED IT!?

what does it matter? The shit is still shit… the IT is still IT….

I am my own grave digger, i am my own ladder.. i am my own lightbulb, my own sun, my own

The clocks are unique… go wth it… the money is not…. the clocks are unique

GO WITH IT!

Written by Dave

February 26, 2008 at 1:32 AM

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Dont find me there, dont light that, dont open ours it wont be ready when you do i know mine wont, dont leave that to the side, dont expect that to be finished, dont expect anything at all, just be in there, get your head in there, i will fly on that, i will leave on that penny, i will.

light up light up light down that road, see it? on the corner? four bricks up beside the forgotten posters, the spent money, buy your shit, eat your shit, shit your shit, they wont shit for you i bet you should pay someone with your blood money, go on shit your shit, you payed enough of it with their money to let it go to waste.

This is dry honey, this is sweet honey, this is the honey to hold me down, and give me energy, wrapped in honey, honey for the masses honey to keep you rooted, honey in the hair, honey on the comb.

Why should we waste it on boxes? why waste it at all? Why even have it? Like before the clocks kept the time ticking over, the money wasnt keeping the world as one. the clocks are unique… the money is not.

Money is not now

its what might be and what was…. i know have IT because of money. Do you want IT? I need IT!? Dont we allllll NEED IT!?

what does it matter? The shit is still shit… the IT is still IT….

I am my own grave digger, i am my own ladder.. i am my own lightbulb, my own sun, my own

The clocks are unique… go wth it… the money is not…. the clocks are unique

GO WITH IT!

Written by Dave

February 26, 2008 at 12:32 AM

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Give it all you got, its all you can hope for, give it all you got.

Its what we have, its all we have.

Give it

It was going to be much harder than this but im starting to lose control of my emotions… i want so much, i dont even know if i am spoiled for choice or if im being to expectant… all i want is a result.

I feel like im in it now.. only two ways out, take the hit or run.

The hit,
I imagine the cold, hard on the back of the neck, like a wet towel. Cold water of course, there you would have the cold… however it is silent… is this the hit? Is the silence the hit? or will it be quick and then silent… a sudden HA! followed by realisation , followed by unease…. will it be?
Perhaps i need to follow through, take it down, give it no chance, come on strong, dont let anything stand in my way, it might hurt me in the doing but in the long run i may have happiness… i may have the ellusive IT.

The Run,
It will and actually is quite long, im not long distance, i know that myself, but giving up means giving in, and what i will be giving into is a lie… the question is do i need to run? I am running right now, sure why dont i just SAY IT!

FUCKING SAY IT!

I do for everyone else, why cant i take my own advice, why cant i listen to reason, why cant i NOT listen to reason?

The grades of light on my fingers right now make me think…. i cant even see some parts of them, the insides… the parts furthest from the light, the undersides…. its a slow movement, i dont know if youd even call the bright side “bright” all i know is there is a side of me im hiding… a side imafraid to give away, to let people know. Well some people…. perhas the people that matter.

Perhaps nobody needs to know

but i want them to

Im gonna dip my head now.

Written by Dave

February 20, 2008 at 2:15 AM

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Get Away From Here

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Give it all you got, its all you can hope for, give it all you got.

Its what we have, its all we have.

Give it

It was going to be much harder than this but im starting to lose control of my emotions… i want so much, i dont even know if i am spoiled for choice or if im being to expectant… all i want is a result.

I feel like im in it now.. only two ways out, take the hit or run.

The hit,
I imagine the cold, hard on the back of the neck, like a wet towel. Cold water of course, there you would have the cold… however it is silent… is this the hit? Is the silence the hit? or will it be quick and then silent… a sudden HA! followed by realisation , followed by unease…. will it be?
Perhaps i need to follow through, take it down, give it no chance, come on strong, dont let anything stand in my way, it might hurt me in the doing but in the long run i may have happiness… i may have the ellusive IT.

The Run,
It will and actually is quite long, im not long distance, i know that myself, but giving up means giving in, and what i will be giving into is a lie… the question is do i need to run? I am running right now, sure why dont i just SAY IT!

FUCKING SAY IT!

I do for everyone else, why cant i take my own advice, why cant i listen to reason, why cant i NOT listen to reason?

The grades of light on my fingers right now make me think…. i cant even see some parts of them, the insides… the parts furthest from the light, the undersides…. its a slow movement, i dont know if youd even call the bright side “bright” all i know is there is a side of me im hiding… a side imafraid to give away, to let people know. Well some people…. perhas the people that matter.

Perhaps nobody needs to know

but i want them to

Im gonna dip my head now.

Written by Dave

February 20, 2008 at 1:15 AM

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Close to THAT…

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…time…. have to put in the boot and pull out the good stuff from the mud…. beauty from pain.

Can i find it is the question i guess..

Must not be unkind..

must not bow my head

must look into the eyes

must do whats

must do everything

must i?

i must

thats such a strong word. not like mellon. mellon is pointy at the end but flowing all the way through until that point.

in that way mellon is kinda surprising. you dont expect the point…. but it comes anyway. Its a bit of a shock really.

which is a pity

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February 13, 2008 at 9:17 PM

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