In The Black Box


Just in the shadow stood….

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….Representative… been there seen that. And everyone slouched around him, and everyone understood the light blue.

Hazey liquid, looping in air turbines… twisting wet tongues around every limb… pulled up and around we lose ourselves in the fabric.. lose ourselves in the bubbling everyday music… the urban and suburban music, the slow rhythmic predictable… the even handed sanity of it all… the 4/4 groove… nothing changes and nothing needs to change..

And i stood attempting to give him the respect he deserved… the grey air whispering the truth.. all as the groove let loose another punishing power.. another wave of electricity..

And gurgling it down week by week… we hesitate at the struggle and ignore the easy. It’s never more than another piece of earth in the furnace… it’s never more than that.


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October 20, 2009 at 2:55 AM

So you wont know…

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….’till you take your head out and sort the mess.

I have been floating around the target for days now… application to the important things perhaps and thats fantastic, but there are still obligations. Some things are seamless.. you don’t know where one thing starts and the other ends. But now i know that there must be structure to most things in order for them to work the way you want. Perhaps a compromise will make the goal easier to reach… I may want one thing… but i wont have that opportunity until i try another thing.. and now it seems like a mess. Perhaps because it is all slower, perhaps because it is all up in the air and i don’t know what i am doing exactly. I have all the tools sitting there and looking at me.. but i fail to apply what is needed… as if my body has given up.

Put the pieces together and sort it out, its that simple.

So lets sort it out – right here and now… what is there to consider..

The Life – and all Six parts of it…

The Book – and the hours that must be committed

The Occupation – And the Deadlines

The Airwaves – That open my eyes

The Words – To which this will go a long way

The Noises – that are everywhere and i am missing at every opportunity

The New Music – that has a new face, one that i have yet to say hello to

The Images – That forever will be lost

The Old Music – That feeds the veins

And i wonder if it is at all possible… we will knock off one in three short weeks.. the others as time passes.. but there is nothing stopping the on going practice… the ongoing ideals and ideas.

Dont listen to them, this time its just you – it’s just you, and you have to do it…. you have to sort out the mess – This is where you like to be.

In the black – between lightbulbs that shine on nothing within your walls.. blank canvas – double guarded.. not obliged to be or do anything – let loose and free to be free. They say it is inferior – they say they are superior… what they dont understand is the liberation of it all – no longer involved in it.. it doesn’t matter who you know and what you said and did with who and where.. its not about this or that event any more… its not about the involvement, it’s not about that time we will meet…

… it’s just a number between 1 and 100.  Its just another percentage, just another average, just another one.

It’s not the difference you will point out.

And why did it start here? Why in this way, so subtle.. i returned to this, left it for so long and wondered why it had not reared it’s head before.. and i am thankful for what i have.. and the 13 that i never even noticed coming and going. The other 12 had seemed so substantial… but now its just another number… and i rejoice in reaching the point when it is just another number before 24….36….48…. and whenever else…

There is nothing better.. and smiles will shine from the black, as i dip my head in different waves, some older and some more contemporary. This is not just about the best new vibrations any more… must take time to sort it out and lift the roof up higher.

Expansion… development… enhance and perfect. .. perfect… and be proud.

Written by Dave

September 30, 2009 at 1:36 AM

Here goes another one…

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… it’s tough figuring out what that little thing is that is missing. You put together everything to the very best of your ability.. you try and try… yet working out the bits that missing.. the bit that will transform everything.. because as far as you are concerned there is nothing better, nothing that can match it.

What is worse is the noises you hear.. noises that sound just as good if not worse. .. if not better.. And you can’t understand why.

No you don’t want to have to be their friends… you dont want to have to know him or her… you don’t want to have to be “in”..  and if that is what’s missing then i will let the party come to me because that pole isn’t going to be sucked any time soon.

Then there is the long hours.. the worry.. the little things.. the wants.. the wants that become needs.. the needs that just wont give up.. and then you are in a bind. And the more you listen the weaker it becomes.. the weaker you become.. the less you believe.. and you look at them, and hear them and wonder what the fuck they did… and you try harder.

Like everything, it’s a big ol’ circle, but we knew that from the start.. and if you are the only statistic on a page… if you remain to be just the number  then it helps.. because it all starts with just a number… and we feel its only a second away.. 10,000… and we never see it coming.. post it somewhere.. and the world passes by the billboard… give that a go… drop it … let it work a little … let it work a little.

Then it’s just a circle.. because with one there will be others.. its turning and you are just trying to hop on the right carriage.

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September 13, 2009 at 2:48 AM


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August 28, 2009 at 4:13 AM

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There is another reason…

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…. Oh look at that noise…i should dip the head now.

Long and deep and rise to 8 more… decent and to my standard.. like a good servent. Stop that silly noise. We rise to another one, another great explosion of sound and …oh dear.

Should dip the head.

long and deep


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August 28, 2009 at 3:58 AM

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Because You Got Eyes on Good and Tight

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Heavy loads will sometimes come on slowly… didn’t see it rise out of the sunshine i must say… and now at the tail end I’m flat on it, pushing empty onto downhill slopes, hoping for momentum to find the way. Oh but it was a fun ride… and i know that with this drop into the unknown i will rise with the sun and find another mountain to climb in the shade..

Easy peasy they say, but we got eyes to groove on and they are good and tight… reveal that to the senses and let it get fixed up good for the Sunday parade.

You have another wave of ill thinking? another bazillion to spend and make perfect for the future. investment investment investment. If we take away the bass perhaps it will be easier for the lighter stuff to float up their noses… This one is a keeper i think

But just because you got eyes…. on good and tight.

Ill let that one slip towards you and you can deal with it how you like.

Its a simple equator.. long and round… could have been flat. But just because…

… i really will.

Written by Dave

August 25, 2009 at 4:25 AM

Oh what to think,

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You go and come, and fold out a new one. Its been awhile and now i look back and wonder how i reacted.

It was funny and long, stupid and funny.

But the liquid memories make sense now, it was and it was great. And IT was.

Maybe i should go and find my own, Link fire to them and see if they rise up into the sky. There was every sense of the world in that time. So little to worry and constant improvement in everything. Ahhhh but now i have come to disregard the other stuff… the things that are best forgotten. It was long after all.


Ill still go and find them.. that year of long… ups and downs.


Guess id like to thank them… i smiled a lot.

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August 20, 2009 at 3:07 AM

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